"Mommy, don't worry about me while you are at work because I will be playing with Paw-Paw!"
I usually write to a "mass audience" when I blog, but right now YOU are the target audience. I hope one day you will enjoy reading my words about our star-studded family!
Anyways...this past week was unlike any other I have ever experienced because I started back to work as a first-time mommy. I can't tell you enough how much I miss you during the day. When I think about me being a "teacher", I am constantly thinking about how my words and actions would be seen by you. I hope you see, from my actions, a strong Christian, loyal friend, ethical worker and family member; ALL at the same time.
Right now is a stressful time for mommy. I describe this stressful time as "back to school". I want to make a commitment to you...I will work hard at keeping my stress JUST my stress and not causing it to be your stress or your daddy's. My plan is to apply the same classroom management skills that I use in the classroom to the household AND to stop every few hours and give thanks to God, Your daddy, and the love that I have for you. It seems when thanksgiving is given then stress is then but into perspective. I can't wait for you to comprehend the book Seven Blind Mice by Ed Young! It is a great book on perspective/point of view!
When you were born, Mrs. Amanda Renter said to me..."Connie, Stone is God's child not really yours. He has chosen you to help Him raise Stone." Mrs. Amanda's wise words helped to humble me while at the same time have given me peace in all kinds of stressful moments. For example, your sleeping in the crib. I thought you were going to die of SIDS! With me going back to work, I realize that I am not the only one helping to raise a strong and faithful man of God; that in itself stresses me because I have control issues and think I am the only "good" teacher!!! However, I know that God is the pillar of great strength and protection over you AND that gives me such perfect peace. Thought I would share how I am able to work and be a mommy to you at the same time!
"Mommy, I remember hanging out with Mrs. Amanda when I was just 5 months old!"
"Mommy, Mrs. Peggy is raising me well because she tells me NO, Sir!"
"Mommy, we need more pics of Mrs. Peggy on our family blog!"
"Mommy, we need more pics of Mrs. Peggy on our family blog!"
Your dad and I want to be your hero. For me to be a worthy example, I must not only state to you what are hero qualities but also exhibit them without second guessing or asking for validation of my actions. Stone Cash-doing the right thing is NEVER easy...especially if everyone is looking and/or if no one is looking. When you get older, remind me to tell you how and why I stood up in front of about 80 people; some of them my friends and some of them my enemies. Remember my dear boy, we do/say things not for ourselves but for Him to help spread the love for others who are in need.
I love you...enjoy some of the moments that I captured this week!!! Next week you turn 9 months! Why are you going up so fast!?!? Slow down and enjoy being a baby! Giggle!
"Mommy, go to work; ALL is well!"
"Mommy, are you glad your first week back to work is over!?!?"
